Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Birthday July 20, 2008

Connor James Lawson arrived on Sunday, July 20th, 2008 at 11:16 am weighing in at 6 lbs 8 oz and 20 inches long.

How it all happened:
Saturday, July 19th, I woke up at 9:45 am and realized that I had slept 10 hours that night! It was amazing to sleep that long and feel that rested. But, I realized that I hadn't felt little Connor move all night. I got up and ate a really big breakfast: 2 nectarines, 2 eggs and 2 Pop Tarts (strawberry). Now, I was fully rested and had a nice full stomach. Now it was time to clean house.
It then was 11am and I woke up Ryan to tell him that I still hadn't felt the baby move. (I had felt hiccups once, but never a kick or anything since Friday.) He convinced me to page the doctor. The OU doctor on call told me to go to the hospital immediately to check it out. After hanging up the phone, I cried because I was scared and in my gut I knew that it was a God sign that I had a good nights sleep and a big breakfast...
I was able to wash my face and put on deodorant before Ryan was frustrated and said, "get in the car!" We arrived at the hospital around noon. My blood pressure was 140 something over 96. I still had swelling in my feet that didn't go away over night and I now had 1+ protein in my urine. It was only a trace just 2 days ago at my doctor appointment. So, within 5 minutes of being there the nurse came in to my room in triage and said, "We're going to have a baby today!" My first reaction, in a loud voice with bug eyes, "WHAT!" I didn't know what to think. I was not prepared for that statement, but in my gut I knew that was going to happen. After the nurse left I cried to Ryan saying "I'm not ready yet!" Ryan, of course, was so elated. He could not stop smiling. I could not grasp the situation forth coming. I started listing off things that still needed to be done at home....I didn't get to vacuum or do the laundry!
Within an hour I was wheeled up to a Labor and Delivery room. They hooked me up to an iv, after 3 tries in different veins. My cervical exam resulted in me needing to have Miso (sp?) put into me via a disolvable pill to make my cervix thin out and start to dilate. While they were hooking me up to everything and getting me situated, Ryan went home to grab all the hospital bags and bring Chief back to town for him to go to my parents house. In the mean time, mom came up to the hospital to be with me.
The miso was inserted at around 4p. It began to give me contractions, but they were very bearable. After the miso wore off (4 hours) they checked my cervix again (8p). I had dilated to a 2, but since I had contractions, they could not do another round of miso, instead they started pitocin. I was scared to labor on pitocin, but I did not want the epidural because I had to prove I could give labor naturally! I did get to use the hospital birthing ball. So, for the first 5 hours of being on pitocin, I sat on the birthing ball and had Ryan rub my back. The first 5 hours were bearable. I forgot to mention that every 30 minutes they would up the pitocin dosage. After about 5 hours I had dilated to 3cm...slow, but it was progression. My contractions started to become too uncomfortable and I knew I had a long road ahead since it took me 5 hours to gain a centimeter. I did take Stadol. I was warned that it is really only affective for the first dosage and it only lasts an hour. I wanted to try it and see how it helped. Stadol made me feel drunk and it took the edge off the contractions. I was able to rest, with my eyes closed for about 30 minutes. Each hour, for about 4 hours, I asked for another round of Stadol, but looking back, they were right because it did not help ease the pain at all after that first dosage. Sometime during those 4 hours they said I did dilate to "barely 4cm." They decided to break my water. Thus far, the most painful thing is to lay flat on a hospital bed and have them poke and prod me. They broke my water and it was clear, but at the same time, they put in an internal monitor. I had no warning they were going to do this, nor did I have a real reason why. But, this monitor was able to tell them the accuracy of how strong my contractions really were. I think they wanted to make sure I was having adequate contractions to help me progress. But, during the water breaking and insertion of the monitor, I started shaking, crying and moaning really loud. It was SO painful.
Through the rest of the wee hours of the morning I still labored through the pitocin contractions but with moans and groans. Finally, at around 9:00 am on the 20th, I couldn't take the pain anymore. I asked for an epidural. Ryan was out of the room when mom and the doctor helped convince me to get it. He was glad he was not in the room because he didn't know how to handle that situation as the labor coach, knowing I didn't want to get an epidural, but also seeing how much pain I was in. It took about 20 minutes until the epi was inserted. Once inserted at about 9:30am, they said it might take about 10 minutes for it to take full affect. I finally was able to rest during my contractions and I fell asleep for 30 minutes. I woke up suddenly from my sleep to burning in my vaginal canal. The contractions were not bad, but the burning was horrible. I immediately said to the nurse, "somethings not right, the epi is not working right because I feel horrible pain down there." She had me sit up more to get the medicine to flow "down there." She did a cervical exam and within 30 minutes of being on the epi, I dilated from 4cm to 8 cm. As soon as the nurse left the room, I became very verbal with my moans and still insisted the epi was not working because I thought you aren't supposed to feel anything and I still felt horrible burning and stretching pain down there. I suddenly had the urge to push. Ryan called the nurse right back in the room and she did another cervical exam. I was now 10 cm and ready to push! It took 45minutes on the epi for me to relax and dilate from 4cm to 10cm. I didn't know that my body was too tense for the past 17hours to dilate.
The nurse immediately sat at the end of the bed and guided me to begin pushing during contractions. Ryan was on one leg and a nurse was on my other leg holding them up.(Later on, after birth, Ryan said that with the first pushes they could already see the head.) Basically the pushing was very painful, enough so that I said I might throw up, so they had a barf bag on standby. I pushed from 10:18am to 11:16am. Throughout the pushing they kept thinking that the next push would get his head out. In my head, I was horrified and didn't think I could "do this" because I thought I would have to push this hard, all over again, to get the shoulders out too. I screamed at the staff once because it was more painful to have them pulling apart my vagina, making way for the baby's head. They decided to finally do a small episiotomy. I knew it was happening, but it wasn't uncomfortable. After they cut me, he came out! And, 5 seconds later they said the shoulders were out. I was so relieved to know that I didn't have to push hard to get the rest of him out. Once out they took him over to the bed to get his measurements. Ryan went over there to him. I laid there and was stitched up. Getting stitched was painful too because I was so sore down there. It didn't help that I had some brand new resident doing the stitching. He was being trained as he did the stitching, so it took forever. Apparently, this was one of his first births too. While being stitched, I asked loudly, "It's a boy, right?!"
Now, we have baby Connor James Lawson, whom, based on pictures from Ryan as a baby, looks just like Ryan, only with my dimples!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Dr. Bundren appointment

After circling the OU-Tulsa campus, I found the new building where the OU-Physicians have a private practice, which is where Dr. Bundren is located. (His invetro office is not on the OU campus.) The office building is new and really nice.
An OU nursing student took my vitals. Dr. Bundren checked my cervix, the outside measurements of my uterus/stomach and evaluated the urine test and my blood pressure. My cervix is soft, but not dialated yet. Based on the outside measurements of my uterus, I am measuring right at 37 weeks and not 3 1/2 weeks ahead. So, maybe he won't be a huge baby after all. My blood pressure was 140/90 and I had a trace of protein in my urine. Dr. Bundren did not like those two factors. Prior to me leaving, they checked my blood pressure again and it went back to 126/80.
I am scheduled to go back to the doctor office on Monday at 8:30a. During this appointment they will monitor my contractions, blood pressure and do an ultrasound to check the amount of amniotic fluid. At one point during my doctor visit, Bundren mentioned that we may need to get this baby out of me depending on what my appointment shows on Monday. He gets concerned when high blood pressure and protein show up all the sudden. I am bummed that he has inferred inducing because that will not be "natural birth" friendly. Dr. Bundren rotates with about 7 other doctors. He mentioned that he is going out of town at the end of next week. So, I really don't know what to think...is he trying to induce me so that he can for sure be there during the delivery, rather than have me be delivered by one of the rotating doctors? I am just a little bummed about going from a doctor that I was guaranteed to have during delivery..and always seeing the same office nurse to now being a patient in a practice of many doctors, nurses and even medical students. I'll try not to draw any more conclusions until I find out what he wants to do after my appointment on Monday.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

A blessing disguised as chaos at 37 weeks

After much thought regarding the doctor and hospital change, I've realized there are many positives that have come from this chaotic situation.
First, it was great to go to a high risk doctor throughout the majority of my pregnancy because I had reassuring ultrasounds at every appointment. But, I'm far enough along now that I don't need those reassuring ultrasounds.
Secondly, if I was still with Dr. Stewart, he would be doing the circumcision. I was never comfortable with him doing that because he's not a pediatrician. Now that I'm going back to Dr. Bundren, his policy is that the pediatrician does do the circumcision.
Lastly, Hillcrest hospital is known to have the best Women's Center in town and they are proponents of natural birth.
I am happy to go back to Dr. Bundren because I had planned to have him be my regular OB after the pregnancy. I was unaware that he has a separate offices: one for infertility and one for Obstetrics. I will now be put in the situation that I could get one of the other doctors on call for the delivery because Dr. Bundren does work in a private practice with a few other doctors in his OB office at the OU Schusterman Center.
Tonight I am going on a hospital tour with mom because Ryan is teaching a class at the fire department. I am just concerned that I get to see a visual of where I'll be giving birth. So, after the tour and my appointment with Dr. Bundren tomorrow, then I'll be at ease with having the baby at any time...plus I'm now 37 weeks (full term).
As for what my body is doing right now, well, it's cramping a lot and it feels like I have to hold the baby up or he'll fall out. I KNOW he has dropped. If he hasn't, then I can't imagine how much lower he could go. I now feel more kicking directly in the center, below my chest. So, I also think he is definitely as vertical as he can get.
I'm still rotating between the couch and the bed. I can only sleep in each one for a few hours and then it gets uncomfortable. Chief usually follows me wherever I sleep. He's still my baby puppy. Although, I think I scared him last night because I had moved out to the couch and he didn't hear me until I did a toss and turn. He came out there and frantically sniffed my face (to make sure it was me). I was a bit startled, but we both calmed down and he laid down beside me on the floor.
My blood pressure has gone back down to normal. I think it's because the roof is done and Ryan is back in town for good. But, my ankles have been getting really swollen since Monday. Usually they have only been getting a bit swollen at work, where I sit all day and cut off circulation. But, now they are staying swollen.
The baby has hiccups at least twice a day now. I think it's probably because he's swallowing amniotic fluid now. I read that they swallow stuff now and that's what causes the merconium (first stool to be black).
My car is washed, house is clean, and my bags are packed. Let's go!!!!

Monday, July 14, 2008

Changing doctor and hospital!

Today I found out that Dr. Stewart has personal issues that probably aren't going to be resolved and so he is closing his practice! As of 4:30pm today I have spoke to Dr. Bundren's office for them to see me through the rest of the pregnancy and we also registered at Hillcrest Hospital. Dr. Bundren delivers at Hillcrest. Now, I am trying to set up a last minute private tour of the hospital! I have to have my weekly appointment at Hillcrest this week because Dr. Bundren's office doesn't have any open slots, but I should be seen by him in the office starting next week. I just hope that I get to tour the hospital and see Dr. Bundren before I go in to labor. I want to be able to explain to him my birth plan and allow him to check everything over before he actually delivers the baby!

I am sitting in the recliner with my feet propped up on pillows. My feet and legs are extremely swollen. My legs and feet feel like my skin is stretched to the max. I only get swollen when I sit during the day (i.e. at work). If I'm up and around, they don't get swollen at all.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Yoga hurts

I went to yoga class on Wednesday and I was only able to do a few of the instructed positions. It was painful and not a good pain. The baby is just too big. I could not even attempt to get comfortable during the relaxation time on the floor...granted we get to use pillows...that still didn't help.

Speaking of pillows, there is really no amount of pillows that can help me get comfortable enough to sleep in bed. My upper back really hurts from laying on my left side and my right arm having to hang over across my body. I would give anything to be able to lay on my back or right side again. Ahh...the luxuries in life that I miss. I have found that the couch is much more comfortable because of the back support that the cushions give and also the way that my stomach weight only sinks the middle couch pillow, leaving the end cushion up higher to keep my head elevated. The couch conforms to my body where as the bed has begun to feel like a board working against all my body's curves, er, baby curves.

Ryan and I finished our shingle medications today. He was un-quarantined earlier this week because all of the shingles scabbed up and went away. He also only had to take pain medication for 2 days. I think he caught it early. We are so thankful that I did not go in to labor while he had the shingles.

Robbin brought me the rest of the parts to the bassinet. It is all put together and in our bedroom. Chief will begin learning that he can't sleep in that area of our bedroom floor...that corner, where the bassinet sits was one of his prime sleeping areas. I really think Chief knows the baby is coming soon. He has been very attached to me. He even has been sleeping on the bed with his head on me! He never does that. He usually spoons with daddy at night. If I go in the living room to sleep on the couch, then he follows me and sleeps either on the floor next to me or on the couch (at the other end) with me. Sometimes he gets the great idea to nuzzle in behind the curve of my knees.

This past week we took a tour of St. John and pre-registered. Dr. Stewart closed his office this week, so he had me go to St. John for my normal, weekly appointment. For the first time during this whole pregnancy, I got high blood pressure while at my hospital appointment. It creeped up to 138/95 at it's highest. So, I had to stay in the hospital for two hours while they kept monitoring it. My BP hovered around the lower 90's and upper 80's, but since I didn't have any protein in my urine or any major swelling, the doctor decided to let me go. Ryan has been taking my BP at home, per my request, and it has stayed in the upper 80's and lower 90's, so I can't say that the hospital caused it to go up, although it was very strange being in L&D for the first time!
Also, while at my hospital appointment, they had me hooked up to a contraction monitor and apparently I'm having contractions. I can feel the contractions when I'm standing up, but I can't tell that I'm having them when I'm sitting down. I can't wait to see if I'm dialated at my appointment next week with Dr. Stewart. I know the baby is lower because it is much more uncomfortable to stand up. He is so heavy, lower, and I get frequent contractions when I stand.

Ryan is leaving this weekend to go teach some fire classes in Weatherford. Mom and dad are still on vacation in Jackson Hole, Wyoming, so I'm supposed to wait to have the baby until at least Monday. I'll try and hold off. Carol is on hospital call for me.